A Dying Flame

This fire consumes
What little is left
Embers like pain
Still burning deep

I try to back away
My smoke stung eyes
Still searching
For some escape

Flames licking
At my feet
No matter where
I try and run

So I sit here
And let this fire
Devour me
Wholly and completely

Making charcoal
Of my bones
Crumbling
Into dust

But when these flames
Have died
And the coals
Have all turned black

I will rise
From the ashes
And find my heart again

Insomnia

Well, lack of sleep is encouraging me to write. Honestly, it's not even that late... 20 minutes past midnight to be exact. But for someone who loves sleep as much as I do... it's late. There's so much swirling through my mind right now. I was reading Owl City's blog tonight, and I really like the way Adam describes this phenomenon:

"It’s funny how insomnia has a way of hauling faded memories up from the cellar of the mind, unearthing buried bits of nostalgia from deep within and spreading the broken, jagged pieces out in front of you like a display of junk at a garage sale. It makes you feel cheap and guilty when you didn’t do a thing in the world to kindle the dull burn in your veins or the sting in your eyes. Some nights the painful past unexpectedly pushes up through the floorboards like an ugly nightmarish weed, and by doing so, cultivates and nurtures an entirely new species of headache." (http://owlcityblog.com/2011/05/31/cue-the-sun/#more-5512)

And oh, is this ever true! At the moment, my head feels like ants are gnawing away at my brains, and then crocheting the bits and pieces left into a nice heavy blanket.......... Yes, I do realize that it makes no sense. Thanks for letting me know. But really, I think insomnia does have a way of bringing back memories. It's almost like scraping the scab off of a wound--recent or not. So what is one to do in this situation?
#1) Don't make any big decisions

#B) Stay 'out of this world' with any thoughts-- don't think too deeply or seriously

#4) Stop reading random blogs and go to bed

Now, if only I'd take my own advice....